how awful am i?!
Wednesday, August 23, 2006
Updating this blog seems to be becoming a monthly thing for me. Bad blogger! Bad blogger! I really should post here more often, and I'm sorry I haven't. So many things have happened, and now I don't know where the hell to start.
Ok. As of today, I am 13 weeks and 3 days pregnant already. Passed the first trimester, and Peanut is doing good. Yay!!! The first trimester wasn't as bad as how I've seen or read others to have experienced it. I hardly had any morning sickness, although there are a few times when a certain smell just makes me gag. I know that is something that I should be thankful for. And believe me, I am!
I guess you could say that the biggest thing about my pregnancy now is that I have gestational diabetes. Yep. What normally would've been a possible occurrence on a woman's 25th to 28th week of pregnancy has become a reality for me at 2 months. When I went for my first prenatal checkup with my OB, she had asked for my history, of course. Since my dad is diabetic, she had asked me to go for an oral glucose challenge test. Dang, I hate that test! That orange drink they make you take is real icky. Obviously, I "failed" the challenge test, which prompted my OB to refer me to an endocrinologist. Then my endocrinologist made me go through an oral glucose tolerance test this time. That was worse! More of that icky orange drink, but I had to fast the day before and I had to stay in the hospital for 3 hours because they had to take my blood every hour. Terrible, terrible, terrible! And again, obviously, I "failed" that test too. Well, I didn't do THAT bad. I failed 2 out of the 4 blood tests, and of the two I failed, I only missed the mark by a point or two. Until today, I'm not sure whether that's good, or if that totally sucked.
Anyhoo, to make a long story short, I have a mild case of gestational diabetes. I'm on a strict diet which does not include any sugar. Aaack!!! No cake, no candy, no muffins, no chocolate. For a time, I've also had to check my blood sugar before every meal and an hour every after -- which meant I had to prick my finger 6 times a day. When my endocrinologist was quite satisfied that I was sticking to my diet religiously, I'm now down to pricking my finger 3 times a day. Ah, the simple pleasures in life. LOL! So there. It sucks, really. But looking at the big picture, it's a teeny tiny small price to pay for our Peanut.
We went for our monthly checkup last Saturday, and everything's pretty good. We tried to check for Peanut's heartbeat using that Doppler device, but we weren't able to find it yet. I was worried for a bit, but our OB assured us that it wasn't unusual not to hear it on the 3rd month, and she promised that we would hear it in our next monthly checkup. I was thinking of having an ultrasound just to be sure that Peanut's ok, but Mr. S convinced me not to worry too much and to have faith on our doctor's assurances.
I haven't been able to scrap as much as I'd like, and it bums me out sometimes. I did manage to turn in my kits for RAKScraps
(which I will have to show you guys soon) and do my sponsor layouts and article for the August newsletter (which is awesome, by the way! LOL!). But I do have some photos of Chloe and stuff I want to make for Peanut's album that I can't seem to find the time for. I'm not allowed to scrap at night when I get home from work (Mr. S is turning into a real nag! LOL!!!), so that leaves the weekend. But then there are doctor's appointments, trainings that I have to run (yes, on weekends!), and what seems to be my never-ending lethargicness. In fact, I recently just made one of the hardest decisions I've had to do. Because of so many things happening right now, I had to step down from Robin's
creative team. I absolutely loooved working with her designs and she is such a super person, and it really broke my heart to leave.
So right now, I've really just been concentrating on keeping myself and Peanut healthy, putting in my hours at work, and of course, RAKScraps. I can't totally be without digiscrapping, ya know, and RAKScraps is home for me and so that has to stay. Some things are just non negotiable. LOL!
Ok, it's almost snooze time for me. I will leave you with one page I did manage to finish for Peanut's album. Ciao, bellas!
Robin Carlton and Paula Duncan's Creme de Menthe kit at SSD; metal plate and green gingham bow by Katie Pertiet at DD; stitching by Ronna Penner
Font: ChopinScript, VT Portable Remington
Journaling reads: Attempting to write down how I felt when I realized I was pregnant with you is much harder than I had anticipated. How do you capture such joy into words? Your daddy and I have been trying for a year, and although we tried not to pressure ourselves too much, telling ourselves that the time together was good for us (and it was!), the sheer desire to hold you in our arms was just too great. But one day, the heavens managed to smile down on your daddy and I, and so here we are...pregnant and absolutely in bliss. You aren't even out in the world yet, and already so many people are excited to meet you - your grandparents, your uncles and aunts, and even your cousin Chloe is excited to play with you. But no one is more excited to meet you than your daddy and I.
Sometimes, when I'm by myself, I find myself constantly touching my barely there baby bump, and talking to you. It is kinda silly because I know you can't hear me yet, but still - it makes me happy when I share stories with you. Even your dad is such a silly goose! Do you know that before he leaves for work every morning and before we go to bed at night, he gives you your special kiss? It's a simple raspberry on my tummy, but it makes your mommy laugh. We both think you enjoy it too.
Oh, we really can't wait till we are finally able to hold you in our arms, and we can be a family! But until then, our little Peanut, stay safe, be strong, and know that you are much much loved by your daddy and mommy.